Last Thanksgiving was not my first run with Jackson but I believe it was our last. What surprised me on that run was how fast he seemed to get overnight. The coaching that he received at high school was exceptional. I remember with joy seeing him pull away from me even by the first 1k.
Below, I ran that same course today (I think I got his time for 5k after 4k again this year :-). A lot has happened in one year. Jason Groezinger, one of my college roommates, ran a similar path with me two weeks ago, along with Johnny Pip (respectfully John Piper) on Romans 8:25. Today was “longing for Home” by Tim Keller on Redeemer’s podcast. Man, I long for a place and a true home even more these days…
After the run today, I came across this in Jackson’s room – an entry in a journal he kept in Kenya / the church plant. I thank God for Pastor Kyle and his friendship to our son and pointing him to Christ in joy. This quote Jackson copied down from listening to him:
His handwriting is after me :-). He wrote, “Eternal life is the fulfillment of God’s sovereign plan of salvation foreshadowed throughout the entire Bible.” It is fun to read this today and to see his handwriting.
It is good to miss him. It shows hope or worship of the Rock in the midst of a broken world that he is redeeming. He wins…
I miss my son.
While I type, I hear Justine playing “I have a shelter in the storm” on her birthday present new guitar. He is where I hide my family…
“Eternal life is the fulfillment of God’s sovereign plan of salvation foreshadowed throughout the entire Bible.”
This is a great quote. I bless the Lord for His sovereign will, good thoughts and plan over our lives – now and forever.
Eric, I woke up with you very heavy on my mind and in my heart. What to say? Words seem so inadequate at this time. As I was asking God to comfort your fragile heart, I was again reminded that as God comforts you in your deepest pain, it is His plan that with that comfort, you will comfort others. I don’t how. I don’t know who. I don’t know when. I don’t know where. But, this I DO know—God is faithful to His Word. I believe He is at work using your pain to comfort others in ways you might not even know. “I miss my Son.” I gotta believe God experienced those same thoughts as Jesus took on sin and the momentary divide between them became excruciating for both. Oh, Eric, my heart breaks for you (and the family). Very few will ever understand your heartache, but the Father does, and I will continue to pray for His strong embrace to hold you and keep you during this “momentary divide.” Hug, Becky
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