Thanks to my friend at the bank, Joe Jamal, for getting this quote to me. How true and refreshing to read this!
But there must be a real giving up of the self. You must throw it away
“blindly” so to speak. Christ will indeed give you a real personality: but
you must not go to Him for the sake of that. As long as your own personality
is what you are bothering about you are not going to Him at all. The very
first step is to try to forget about the self altogether. Your real, new
self (which is Christ’s and also yours, and yours just because it is His)
will not come as long as you are looking for it. It will come when you are
looking for Him. Does that sound strange? The same principle holds, you
know, for more everyday matters. Even in social life, you will never make a
good impression on other people until you stop thinking about what sort of
impression you are making. Even in literature and art, no man who bothers
about originality will ever be original: whereas if you simply try to tell
the truth (without caring twopence how often it has been told before) you
will, nine times out of ten, become original without ever having noticed it.
The principle runs through all life from top to bottom. Give up your self,
and you will find your real self. Lose your life and you will save it.
Submit to death, death of your ambitions and favourite wishes every day and
death of your whole body in the end: submit with every fibre of your being,
and you will find eternal life. Keep back nothing. Nothing that you have not
given away will ever be really yours. Nothing in you that has not died will
ever be raised from the dead. Look for yourself, and you will find in the
long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin, and decay. But look
for Christ and you will find Him, and with Him everything else thrown in.